I remember when I had to do chores you would tease me and say, “do the dishes Cinderelly”, and boy that would burn me up back then, of course you would laugh and laugh your butt off about it. I would do anything for you to tease me again and call me that.
In your last year’s I lovingly got called Kelley Claus by you and the family. I like that better lol.
Dad I’m trying to understand why you felt you had to leave us all here on earth so soon.
You have kids that truly love you Dad. You left all of us here on Earth with questions and totally heartbroken.💔
I’m not sure what your thoughts were in the last couple months but know this, we ALL loved you as you did us. You never failed to tell us all how loved we were Dad.
I have so many unanswered questions Dad and it doesn’t leave my mind.
It doesn’t Leave your Son Cj and especially Shanna’s mind. Why why why didn’t you fight the good fight Dad? I know you battled a lot of things but you always had the love of God with you and he is merciful and a great comforter so I pray you were wrapped in comfort in your last weeks here on Earth.
I just wish you would have fought harder for us, but I know It’s selfish isn’t it? Sorry Dad.I hate death, something you weren’t scared of because you always said you wanted to go home and God finally sent you there.
Just know this, I loved you even when we didn’t speak all the time and I want to thank you for praying over my pregnancy, my health issues and Gabriella. You would have loved her so very much. All your Grandkids mourn for you as we do.
Dad my heart is broken in two and I am so thankful for my Brother CJ who has been my strength in all this. Jesus gave him a sign all is well and I want to share his story here right and now. His story gave me peace and I know it gave him so much more so maybe it will give someone else peace too.
Here is his story
I am usually the strong one for everyone else in times like this, but tonight I was feeling like I needed comforted for once. After Emily held me and consoled me for awhile, I went outside with my dog to let him out. I started thinking about how amazing it would be if God would send me a red cardinal as a sign that my dad was ok and to comfort me in my time of need. I stood out there for a few mins looking around as other birds passed and began to doubt that I would see the red cardinal I hoped for. Something inside me made me say out loud “SHOW ME”. And wouldn’t you know it, within 10 seconds a bright red beautiful male cardinal flew across my backyard from right to left, right in front of me. It appeared out of nowhere and disappeared just as easily. My heart skipped a beat! I immediately bursted out in tears of joy as I have never witness something so amazing and miraculous before.
From CJ in his words!!
Thank you Dad. I love you an so very glad Jesus allowed my brother that moment. You raised a good young man.
Dad thank you for loving me as your own and I pray you forgive me for anything that may have hurt you as well. Just know you are so very loved and missed. I know your singing for the Lord in your beautiful voice, free of pain.
Until I get to see you again. I love you...😘
Wednesday April 18, 2018 at 3:09 pm